Saturday, September 5, 2009

And the nodule is...

So it turns out that the nodule is not gone...but the good news is that it did shrink. Although I have not seen the actual report from the radiologist, the radiologist spoke to my oncologist whom communicated it to us. The radiologist says it is the Hodgkin's behind one of my lungs. Which this isn't necessarily a bad thing, but not really good either because the less the better. This does not change my stage, it just adds an "E" to the Stage 2A. Apparently, the chemotherapy will take it all away. My good cells are just really starting to get irritated with these bad cells trying to take over. The good cells are just not having it and trying to push those nasty, ugly ones out. Hence still being asymptomatic, my body still hasn't accepted the cancer. I tend to think that my breathing is worsening, but it's all in my head. I made my roommate check on me numerous times throughout the night on Monday because I swore I couldn't breathe...but in reality, I can. It's kind of like when someone says to you, "your shirt doesn't match those pants" and then you look in the mirror and think "does my shirt really not match my pants?" Okay, so maybe not the best analogy, but I tried. I am really not worried about this nodule because I have faith in the chemotherapy that it's going to go away. I mean, it has to..I really plan to live for a very long time, happily and healthy with my super hot husband and beautiful babies. Today, my sister mentioned that she is already planning my cancer-free 25th birthday which will be held in Newport Beach, my favorite place. I am lucky to have her, especially this weekend because I am kind of feeling a little bummed because I am missing friends birthday celebrations, but it'll be okay, I'll make up for it next year. Well, that is the only update I have right now. I will keep everyone posted next week. Enjoy the weekend everyone! Extra love to my lovely friends who are celebrating their birthdays this month!

1 comment:

  1. Hi Laur,

    I know what you mean to have a great sister...my little sister brightens up everyday for me. I can't believing you are going through this and I am not there. But I will visit you soon as you feel up to it. just let me know when. And don't you worry about a thing you are to have a long and beautiful life. You promised you would be in my wedding (when ever that happens!!! LOL). You are best planner I know! Love you, Er

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