Saturday, February 13, 2010

Day 4!

I am still kind of out of it, but starting to regain my strength and feel better. Slowly, but surely I'll be back to myself soon! I am continuing to take it easy today and just let my body get itself back together. I think my body is just at its end and doesn't want to do this anymore - well, that makes the two of us! :)

Happy Valentines Day to everyone! Even though I am valentine-less, I still enjoy the Hallmark holiday very much!! :)

Friday, February 12, 2010

Treatment #11 / Day 3

Sort of strange that it's already Friday and I got treatment on Wednesday because I honestly don't know what the heck I've been doing for the past two days! Last night, I went to sleep at 7:00pm just to wake back up at 1:30am and stay awake for about 3 hours...not fun. Luckily, I was able to watch Keeping up with the Kardashians to keep me entertained! Have I mentioned how OVER I am of having this stupid, sick feeling?! Since I relate it back to being hungover, it almost makes me never want to drink again. Well, okay, I'm kind of lying, I do want to drink again, but never to the point I'm sick and blahhhh! :)

I am still a little red-faced from the steroids, oops I mean from being sunburned in Cabo (wink, wink). I'll take the red face aftermath because those steroids are freakin' lifesavers!!!

Today, my aunt is coming over to bring me some PF Changs again - so parents will come by later to give me my daily injection of Neupogen...and then I'll probably fall asleep on the couch! Don't be jealous of my Friday, I know it's hard not to be. Have a good day everyone!

Oh, and one last thing...I was reading this story about how this lady had breast cancer, well she is now a survivor and she was saying how after so much time passed of being in remission, she can remember the first day she didn't think about having cancer at one point in her life and the day turned into weeks and the weeks turned into months....oh my gosh, I cannot wait to be at that point!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Day 2 of #11

Oh my gosh, I was so weak and exhausted yesterday! But luckily I had my parents to rub my back and legs for me and it made me feel a lot better! I was getting a professional massage once a month, but the massage therapists were a bit skeptical because they said I should have really gotten consent from my doctor since I was undergoing chemotherapy. Blah, Blah, Blah...chemo. So, now I just am waiting to be less than 13 days...and then I'll get a massage every single week! :)

Because I was too cracked out yesterday to really provide an informational blog, I wanted to share something that I heard from another fellow chemo patient. She wasn't speaking to me, but I was eavesdropping...haha. She said, "The doctor saved my life, so I decided to go adopt a puppy and save their life." I thought that was the sweetest thing ever!!! And speaking of which, I am still trying to adopt a maltese, but there haven't been any at the local animal shelters yet.

I slept a bit more than I typically do on the first night.I didn't get to join the other night owls in watching the late night, early morning TV programs...which was good, because it always makes me feel SUPER creepy when I do!

Today, I will be retuning back home to my apartment and it's always nice to be back "home" even though my parents house is always nice to be at. I have a bit anxiety because I know the next 4 days won't be much fun sitting in the house all day long, but hoping time will fly by fast!

13 days, 13 days, 13 days....yay, yay, yay! Oh and I turn 25 in 3 weeks.....please 25th year of my life bring me GREAT health, that's all I am wishing and praying for!!!!!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Day 1 of LAST CYCLE!!!! (Treatment #11)

So, it's official, I am on my LAST cycle of chemotherapy. Cycle #6 is here and I cannot believe it, well actually I take that back, I can believe it because unfortunately I have had to live through each cycle to get here. :) I am extremely exhausted today, extremely. My eyes are actually shutting when I write this. With that being said, I'm keepin' it short....I'm alive, I'm well, and I'm almost done with chemotherapy. I'll be in touch tomorrow to let everyone know how I am feeling! Send me lots and lots of good vibes and prayers are always needed to keep me cancer free and strong!!!!!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010


There is a song by Liam Lynch called "United States of Whatever" and he pretty much states all these scenarios and repeatedly states, "Ya, whateva" to all of them throughout the entire song. Moral of the story is when I think about how bad it sucks to get chemo tomorrow...I think of my good friend Liam and say, "ya, whatevaaa." #11 tomorrow...which only means I have 1 more of this thing we like to call CHEMOTHERAPY. And like the little engine that could....I keep saying I think I can, I think I can - referring to the fact I can beat cancer and finish chemo. Yes, I just referenced a children's book in my blog and if you haven't read that book, I highly suggest you go pick up a copy right now. That little train is pretty hardcore!

Okay, that is all....I am off to get some much needed sleep and hopefully dream of some pretty amazing things. :)